A Story of Surrender And Redemption

Father,

I walk in misery as I hesitate in my obedience to you. I don’t delight in sin enough to take pleasure but obedience to you seems uninviting. I can’t seem to make myself home in this world, I try and seek you but the haunting of my past stops me from finding refuge in you. I walk aimlessly, I walk restless; I walk, but I walk without purpose. I do not belong to this world nor do I fit in, yet I put forth great effort to prove otherwise.

I have searched high and low for a life of purpose. I have searched for peace, and I cannot find it. I am conflicted and I am wavering in my faith. Look upon me with compassion, My Lord. Listen to the cries of my heart….

My child,

I am here, I come running to meet you right where you are. I hear the cries of your heart. You are weary so come rest in my presence, come sit down at the basin of grace as I begin to wash you and cleanse your from the paths you have traveled and the steps you have taken. I do not require an explanation of your wanderings, just know that I love you. I love you with a love that has no beginning and no end, I love you with a love that is without measure, a love that is unchanging.

Give your heart to me and let your eyes delight in my ways as I begin to reveal myself to you. I extend my unending grace to you and I will begin to remove every spot, blemish, and wrinkle. I will begin to cut away all that is dead and unfruitful. You will feel the sting of my perfect work, but I will not let you decay nor will I let you wither because you will be rooted in me. I will bring you nourishment and I will give you strength as I condition and prepare you for service.

You see, Your life was never your own, for I have chosen you since the beginning of time, I will begin to direct your steps as you go forth and You will be a great extension of my work and I will work through you to bring more into my kingdom. You will remain in me and I will remain in you, I will grant you the petitions of your heart and whatever you ask in my name shall be done. You are pleasing to me and you will bring me honor and glory all the days of your life.

***Inspired by John Chapter 15

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Author: faithwalk08

My entire life has been a life of trials and tribulations. I have experienced abuse, rejection, criticism, and a life of pain. I have fallen in love with my Savior. He has delivered me from so much darkness and hurt. I will spend my life writing for HIS glory.

3 thoughts on “A Story of Surrender And Redemption”

  1. This is so my life. I have been in a decade long wilderness. I have just begun coming up out of the darkest of places in the last year. Jesus has so gently repaired large portions of my heart. But there are still pockets of deep regret, places that need great restoration, family that has yet to forgive and broken hearts to be healed. I am weeping as I write this.
    I recognize deep wounding in others, deep Waters that they have walked thru. I have seen Jesus hold me just so as I cried out until I was exhausted with the pain from my heart hemorrhaging from the wounds inflicted by those I loved dearly and trusted the most.
    But I am finally crossing into my promised Land, been released from the prison even as Joseph was. Not many can understand or fathom the depth of the waters, nor the heat of the fires, and the battle to the death that some have faced.
    Your words express more profoundly than any I have read. They are like balm to my soul, peace to my mind.
    Bless you my sister.

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